Can't Cope With Numbers

Hahaha!

I have to steal Tse Munnie's line here: When ever I see numbers, my mind just shuts off.

It's so funny how I never realised this before.

It isn't so much as a switch-off altogether for me, because I really do try -- but I don't have a natural knack for getting it when it comes to math. Even for accounts, I have to work really, really hard -- hours of poring over the textbook, memorizing the theories (see, it's not so bad when it comes to words, haha), and analyzing the double entries.

I remember how I used to positively suck at ledgers in Form 3. And nobody thought I could do accounts in college (since I couldn't even do the basics back in PMR level) -- so I had to work my butt off just to prove that I could.

But math.. ah, math has been such a disappointment. Wait, no.

I have been such a disappointment to math.

The thing about me and math, is that our relationship takes a lot of hard work. It's like a marriage that's been around for 30 years -- eventually, our separate lifestyles & different pursuits in life take their toll on our once-sacred wedding vows. XD

I mean, the moment that I stop working hard at it, I flop like a blubber-coated seal. Bottom line: I only got 28 over 45 for my Common Test 1! That's like, really bad. To be honest, I think my whole class did quite badly (ranging from 4 - 33) - with the exception of Ee Leing, who scored a 40. Congrats, btw. ;P My own failures do not affect the way I regard other people's success -- I'll always be happy for my friends. :)

Therefore, this pretty much means that how good I am in math is a lot like the energy levels in a mortal combat game (the old kind you play on orange & grey Nintendo consols). You hit your opponent a lot, and your energy bar fills up.. you stop for a while, and it sinks back down.

I thought- hey, since I worked so hard for SPM Add Math, I shouldn't have to work all that hard for S.A.M. Math, right? ... wrong! All those weeks of sweat-beaded foreheads working at differentiation & integration last year has all evaporated like the sweat itself. What was it about all the topics in the first few chapters of SAM Math that I hadn't already learned for SPM Add Math? Chapter 2, Graphic Calculator? That chapter wasn't even tested in CT1 -- and Shern Ren's already been tutoring me on using the calculator - so the math quiz today wasn't as big a pain in the arse.

Conclusion : I have to work very, very hard for math -- which I have been neglecting, owing to my great deal of kiasuism for economics & accounts. Hehe.

2nd Conclusion : I thought about going for Math tuition, but it doesn't seem to make much difference for my classmates who do go for it. Buford, Meera .. all of them go for tuition.. but even so, their scores ranged about 13, 19... this test sucked la, all of us did badly. We are also already paying a huge amount of tuition fees for Taylor's College - tuition should have been unnecessary.. it is not a government school.

When Kathryn was teaching me how to use the calculator last night and this morning (I learnt directly how to answer, from her math quiz), she knew so much more than me! We are supposed to know the same things because we're doing the same subject, but her lecturer taught her so much more!

:( Aihh.. maybe Mr Yee is right, maybe we do need a better lecturer to teach us.. he honestly doesn't have enough experience (with the calculator) to teach us SAM Math. He's a fantastic person, wonderful teacher, great friend & mentor to us all... but he is still leaving us tomorrow. *sobs*

We Must Never Give Up In Life!

I'm crying right now!

It was an awesome day originally, really, because I went for the public-speaking workshop and had a lot of laughs with Denise & Andrew Loh the whole day.. then went to Atria for dinner with Denise, Carmen & Sara...

Then I came online so that Denise could send me photos from today...

Then I get invited into my class messenger chat window..

And I find out that my mentor wants to leave us. For good. February 28th, Tuesday.. H1 bids Mr Yee Boon Shan farewell... *sobs*...

Click http://www.ckandjill.blogspot.com/ for another H1 student's cry out! :(
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At KDU - Public-Speaking Workshop (ESUM):

We're in LTA in this pic... near the end of the workshop.. got so bored ... haha 10am - 4.30pm workshop ok! With lots of little breaks in between la, though...

Me & Denise in the canteen... haha their canteen is not air-conditioned la.. not like at Taylor's... but the thing about TCSJ Cafeteria is the weird smell .. like trapped smoke or something, haha!

The notoriously infamous Andrew Loh Zhu An! Hail the best male public-speaker I know!

At Deli France! Sara had a croissant and the rest of us had Bubbleteas from Nelson's... hehe!

In LTA... this is what the place looked like.. benches with great big gaps inside.. hahahha makes me appreciate TCSJ facilities more!! Hehe!

At Kopitiam! Me eating KFC while Denise eating Jap noodles.. shared my potato wedges with Sara & Denise.. hmm ok lah, diet a bit also better lor.. haha...

Haha! Crazy picture! Denise's idea!! This is the mirror place at Atria! Hahaha!!

Photos, Anyone?

Haha okay like half a dozen people have told me in this week itself that they miss seeing pictures on my blog, so... hmm some random pics haha!

Ryan, me & Kevin! Hehe this is a scanned picture.. taken by daddy's cousin who is a photography lecturer at HELP Institute.. hehe nice yah!!

Mr Sean Yee Boon Shan! H1's favourite lecturer, mentor & blur-case math teacher! Haha!

They Call Me Nerd - Hehe!

Hmm besides that, we got back our Accounting Studies CT1 results today! Hehe I didn't do very well, only managed a 14.25 over 20 -- but I think it's the 2nd-highest score in my class, so I'm pretty content. Buford bagged the top score - 16 over 20. Congratulations! Hahahah! The highest score in the whole programme at Taylor's is 17. I feel spurred on to work harder for the next common test! ;) Kind of lazy to work my butt off for the quiz on Monday.. hmmm haha...

Hrmm announcements... Winanga-Li Features Committee is having a meeting outside the SAM staffroom at 3.10pm on Monday. But Takeshi just told me that some of them will be having a Chem CT from 3 - 3.50pm... hmmm well I suppose I'll just tell Mrs Banu on Monday then. And I finally got a full name list (complete with cellphone numbers) of the Features people (11 of us all together!). I think it looks like there are more guys than girls on the team.. hahaha... first time I see such a thing in a creative writing section haha!

Mrs Quek told me that my SubEditor is a guy.. but she didn't tell me who.. telling me later.. hmm.. wonder if I know him already? Well, what ever it is, I hope I can work well with the fella lor.. and the lecturers have put me into the Sponsorship Committee as well! Woot! Hahah! And they're putting me into every department (i.e: going to have a lot of work to do haha) to have a general hand in everything.. wah I hope I come out of this college year with excellent time-management skills... whee~

Yay! KDU workshop for public-speaking tomorrow morning! Crashing at KDU at 8am with darling Denise to chitchat rubbish before the workshop starts at 9am. Yay yay yay. Should have gone out with De & Car to drink teh tarik just now larrr.. but I thought I'd do some work earlier, but it turns out I didn't.. sprawled on the couch trying to take a nap but ended up watching TV with mum.. hahaha and my classmates in college call me a NERD!

Taylor's Law School Debate!

WOW!

It was totally worth staying back a couple of extra hours today! I had the honour of watching the finals of...

the Taylor's Law School Debate!

And all I can say is... WOW!

The debaters were fantastic! All of them were 1st or 2nd year students at Taylor's Law School (twinning with University of Reading, UK) -- the motion was "Should Freedom of Speech Be Limited?".. it was an explosive, eloquent, and highly enjoyable debate. I wasn't bored for a moment!

You see, the thing with inter-secondary school debates was that the teams usually consisted of 1 or 2 good speakers only. Usually, one or two would just drone on and on, and lose the audience's attention in a matter of 30 seconds or so. But today, all three speakers on each team were brilliant. They spoke like winners of public-speaking competitions. And all of them had very different styles, and I realised that my style of speaking was a lot like the style of the girl on the opposition team. And that, truly, served as my inspiration & motivation.

I always thought, hmm what if I can't speak as eloquently as the real lawyers? What if I can't think logically & rationally on my feet? What if I'm just not cut out to take up law? But after watching the debate today, I realised - hey, debaters are just normal people too! They're students, like you and me -- they prepare their speeches, they read off cue cards, their voices & hands tremble a little... we don't ALL have to be breathtakingly, alarmingly fabulous at speaking just to be a good lawyer! :D

It's not that I feel more assured of my decision to take up law because I realised lawyers don't have to be perfect speakers. I feel more confident now, because I realise that it's a learning process. I may not be ready to deliver impromptu speeches or cook up humorous rebuttals right at this moment, but I have the chance to be that good someday. I've only just begun college less than two months ago, and I still have all year to improve on myself as a public-speaker, debater, writer & most of all, as a person.

I feel that it was really worth staying back to watch the debate. It was even held in a mooting court. Wha wha wha. Loved the setting. Love the challenge! Can't wait to take up law! XD

Haircut! Chop chop!

Hahaha now my head is officially lighter! My wild mane of hair has been bettered with a much-needed haircut -- hehe kisses to Nicholas at SenseStudio! It's majorly layered now - actually the style is still the same as last time, just that it's layered more ... haha easier to maintain lorh... XD

Had a Math Common Test today! I think I can pass but cannot score -- I realise now that I really lack practice.. so I'm going to practise more math & do more exercises from now on!

BM Oral presentations for "Pindah" has begun in my class. Today, Alison - Buford - Cassandra - Chiew Nee - Jaya - Jillian took their turns. I think my turn will be on Tuesday or Wednesday.. hmm .. nervous lah.. never presented in BM semi-impromptu before!

All riiiight, got to go and work on my Annotated Bibliography for ESL now.. handing it up tomorrow! hehe! Have a nice weekend, everyone! :)

CHEST HAIR

Hmm... what else?... hmm nothing really memorable happened this week at college -- too many exams going on -- but one of my classmates totally scarred my mental picture of him for life! In a funny way! *ROTFL*!! You know what he did the other day? I dunno what we were talking about, but it got to a point where he pulled down his collar and showed me his chest hair (hAHHAHA! sorry for the loud laugh, classmate!)... and then got some more la, but I think it's too lewd for my innocent blog-readers to read on. Hehe, but nothing wan lah, it was really funny... funny in a really horny way hahah...

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girls love chest hair..they are sexy

To Swear or Not To Swear? XD

Wheeeee~

I'm so lethargic in college nowadays! And I don't know why! My friends usually say I'm usually somewhat hyperactive, and these past few days, I feel like I've been bogged down with some heavy sort of burden... like it's a rainy day, and I'm wearing cashmere pants, and then I walk in mud, and I'm bogged down. Hmm... but I'm not really bummed out anymore, just permanently tired. Walking up four flights of stairs every morning, for instance, can REALLY build leg muscle.. haha!

However, I'm learning to cope.

Remember how my schedule was Monday-Accounts & M'sian Studies Tests, Tuesday - Econs project deadline, Wednesday - Malay report-writing test, Thursday - Math Test, Friday - ESL project deadline?

Well, it's already Thursday tomorrow, which means I've survived three-fifths of what I called the "nightmare week"! Oh yeah, and I managed an 8 upon 10 for the M'sian Studies Quiz. Neat!~ The two questions I got wrong was "How long ago was the Zaman Paleolitik?" I simply tembak 60,000 years (which is wrong, btw! hehe!).. and "Which year did the Dutch conquer us?" I wrote 1511 eventhough I knew that was for the Portuguese, but what I SHOULD have written was 1611.. since the Portuguese were only here for 100 years. Aikz~!

I've got an ESL common test (generic essay writing) on March 1st... then my Highway Code test is on March 5th... ooO... then the first set of SAM holidays (other than CNY) begins on March 11th! Yayness! Nadia's leaving for Penang on March 27th .. :( ... so she's having a BBQ on March 18th I think... hmm wonder what I should get her to bring with her to Penang?

On other news (wah haha like news casting like that hor..), I'm really looking forward to this public-speaking workshop that I'm going for this Saturday. It's at KDU, so Denise (who is coming to the workshop too) will get to show me around! Hehe!

Oh yeah.. the other thing I noticed about college life compared to secondary school.. everybody's just so much more open about sexual stuff... back in school, half the girls in class would have gone "eeeeeee" at any horny jokes, etc... but now, everybody just laughs.. the girls even participate in the joking... is it because there are less than 10 guys in my class, or is it because we're just growing up? I mean, we ARE going to turn 18 this year.. and the government started trusting us regarding direct contact with vehicles (a.k.a. driving) about a year ago right? Haha!

I remember back in Form 5, in this Add Math tuition I had in Kasturi, the tutor used the f-word! It came as quite a shock lo, although I was quite used to it because my classmates at school used it like they use oxygen... but my tutor said stuff like "RM100 for one night's f*ck is expensive you know!"... whoaaaa.. hahaha... pssst: and this was the tutor that I thought was pretty hot! haha!

A while ago, I thought about why I never swore. I mean, in today's teenage world, words like "crap" and "shiiit" are hardly considered vulgarity. So how come I don't cuss? Almost everyone I know does it - with the exception of a few of my best friends i.e: Tse Mun, Denise, Carmen... hmm maybe it's because my closest circle of friends don't. Wow - influence from friends is so important! ;) I didn't really realize that until now!

The Time Factor

A couple of years ago, during a prefects' camp I went to, we had to get up at about 5am every morning and run uphill, downhill & all around Fraser's Hill. So, the first night, my room-mates said I talked in my sleep... moaning: "NOOO .. I DON'T WANT TO RUN ANYMORE!"

-_-"

Now that I'm no longer a 15-year-old newbie prefect & much braver & tougher (well, I like to think that I've grown more tahan lasak, hehe)... I realised there's yet another hurdle that life's thrown my way : South Australian Matriculation.

Like, what the heck??

I know my older friends warned me that it would be a lot of work, months of nonstop slogging away at books & assignments, lots of deadlines to meet.. I know that S.A.M. students have to be investigative, innovative & most of all, INDEPENDENT... and yet, I really thought I could handle the challenge.

But now, it brings me back to question -- can I?

Well, of course, now I have to find a way to handle the stress & pressure -- tuition fees have already been paid, haha -- but even if right at this moment, I'm not in the best shape to run the marathon that all SAM students have to endure; I hope that by the end of this year, I will be.

Maybe I just lack proper time-management skills. Well, actually, that's pretty obvious. I watch way too much TV and take too many long breaks. I sleep too long and waste too much time dawdling. All these are things that I can improve on. Maybe, before now, it just didn't seem so urgent to shave off those rough edges -- but maybe now, SAM will make it a MUST. Maybe I place too much importance on the little things in life. Maybe I'm just a big time-waster and am looking for more excuses to waste even more time (i.e: blogging!)...

By the way, I had my M'sian Studies quiz (hehe this one was ok.. can pass la -- but memorized a whole list of years for nothing..) & Accounting Studies Common Test today. Accounts reeked. My whole Statement of Financial Position was ... the f-word would be put to perfect use right now, but I choose to say... screwed up. Not only was the Total Assets & Total Equities supposed to be $119,000 -- mine was $31,600. Like, woOt! Not even close! I believe I just kissed 3 marks goodbye.. and it wasn't even a kiss.. it was more like a molestation.

And you may think - "Aiyer Sha-Lene, you don't so kiasu lah, 3 marks only..." but you forget! The rest of the paper! I didn't know how to do any other questions for sure! I studied the textbook like the Bible but still, few questions came out from there. Like.. what on earth is "financial" and "non-financial information"? And "item from account" from "accounting entity convention"? *bangs head hopelessly on table* I believe I've never looked so bummed out in my entire college life (I know, barely 2 months, but still! Was going for a happy-face record you know!)... when I went into the Multi-purpose Hall (MPH), I wanted to score as high as possible for the test... but when I walked out, I was only praying to pass it.

Exams are demoralizing. -_-"

Working on Economics project now... stuck at question 2.. Buford, Li Shan, Laura & An Nie are helping me now.. hahah, I think I am incapable of independent work anywhere, anytime except when it comes to the editorial board. By the way, have I blogged? I got Editor for Winanga-Li! That's the SAM Yearbook at Taylor's. Whee!~

mystery of poetry

the little beetle said to the old oak tree
how do you know if someone has pissed on you?

and the old oak tree said
when you come and talk to me.

S-T-R-E-S-S

Overload! Overload!

Next week must be like a nightmare week! Monday's got our Accounting Common Test 1 & Malaysian Studies Quiz 1. Also have to hand up our annotated biblios for our ESL sources. We have to hand up our Economics project work on Tuesday (and we only got it today!)... Thursday's got Math Common Test 1. On the same day, we've got a report-writing exam. We've also got our oral presentation for "Pindah".

But thank goodness, Mr Yee rescheduled our Math Quiz to the following week... *phew*... he decided to take pity on us! We love you, Mr Yee!! ;P

Today I went to McDonald's with Rameera & my new friend from Nigeria, Chika (is that how his name is spelled? hmm, dunno haha) for break... and I didn't eat anything from McD's... ate the miserable little crumbly breakfast bar thing instead.. I think I must have extraordinary discipline (cheh wah hahahaha).. to be able to refrain from eating the sweet-smelling apple pie, or the crispy-crunch french fries... la-la-la... I could feel myself burning calories just THINKING about all the food that I wasn't eating. Aihhh!! I hate diets! :( But I can fit into my shirts again! And those that I couldn't fit into last time! Wheee~ Wow, I wonder how much weight I can lose before leaving for Australia? o_O

My econs project... 3 questions... weird questions, can't understand them haha! My team consists of me, Alison and MING! Haha! We are so nuts la, but at least we can do work that type lo... I think everyone picked teams according to locations this time... e.g. Li Shan, Keith & Mak are all from Taman Tun, and they're on the same team.. hehe random post la today..

Okay.. have to go write a boring, long essay about the sosioeconomic change and development theme in the first novel we're studying for SAM Malay... "Pindah" by Jong Chian Lai. :) Toodles, lovely bunnies!

Valentine's Day!

Although mi amor Shern Ren calls it "Singlehood Awareness Day", and despite the fact that I felt all rotten about Valentine's Day last night -- today rocked!

Okay - let's give my dear readers a boringly detailed account of the day:

1) I wore the black top that Vanessa got me for Christmas! Whee~ Everybody kept reading my shirt all day, but the alphabets started coming off! :( I felt so sad about that -- but I'm definitely going to wear it again! Thanks, mi amor Vanessa, it fits well now! It's much looser now than when we first saw it at TopShop! Hahahah! In class, Mak & Seng Ming were like.. "smexy? what's smexy? ooh, smexyyy"... and "wah what's that? mama-mama... mamacita..." o-O"... and funnier still, complete strangers were reading the back of my shirt!! Blardy farney to turn a bit and see people reading your shirt la.. hahaha...

2) Rameera got me a Valentine's Day card! But she left it in her apartment as she was showing it off to her room-mates! HAHAHAHAH that's meeeera for you! She's so sweet la - she got me a pair of really classy earrings for CNY also... ehehe... then she go and buy me some more presents from the stalls set up today.. got her & Carmen presents.. sorry to the rest of my friends, if I didn't get anything for you! :( I will give you your presents another time ok!

2) Moral class. Nothing happened. Boring, boring, boring. The lecturer hates us. LOL! Everybody listens to their MP3 players & handphones (with the music inside that type haha) and chitchats in class or does other work. And we didn't get back our exam papers - I wonder how I am going to learn from my mistakes?

3) Math. Whee~ Mr Yee rocks as a mentor la. H1 is so lucky to have him -- we could have gotten any other crap mentor instead, but we got a new, enthusiastic lecturer. Lucky right?? And I can do my math in class! Yay! Not in any math trouble at the moment. But still haven't studied the GC yet ... mi amor TSR gonna tutor me if I don't get it :) thank goodness for friends!

4) Malaysian Studies. One of my favourite subjects! Mr Tong tells us the craziest stories... from during the communist rule to the number of wives that his friend in Serdang New Village had. Wha wha it's just fascinating.. I always like history :P... well, when it's told well la.

5) Economics. :D We got back our Common Test 1 results today! And I've been worried sick about it, because Mrs Goh said about 10 students FAILED .. and she said she was really disappointed, because this was only the first topic and so many of us did so badly already.. and I had a really, really bad feeling that I could be one of the 10. I mean, I didn't have time to finish my paper properly -- I rushed through everything and went about 5 seconds past "Pens down".

Then, during the final 15 minutes of the lesson, she started handing back our papers.. I started zoning out.. wondering "What am I going to do if I failed? How do I deal with it? What do I tell my parents?".. then all of a sudden, I heard her say "The highest is 47. Good... Sha-Lene.." -- and smiling, she handed me back my paper. At first, I thought those were two separate statements.. the first being that the highest score in class was 47 over 50. Secondly, she was calling my name to take my paper.

But then I looked at my paper, as it was being passed from her hands to mine in midair -- and I saw: 47/50 -- Good. Wha wha wha wha!!!! I was ECSTATIC!! Buford and the rest of the people around my table were looking at my paper, and they were saying something like "Wah so high!" or something la.. couldn't really hear, my eyes were practically tearing up from relief. I didn't fail.. hahah, and I got highest in class! Wow! It was so unexpected! :) I was really, really lucky -- and I'm very thankful! So, out of the 5% of my internal assessment that has now been marked.. I have scored a 4.7%... Happy happy happy -- best Valentine's Day ever! ;P

The scoring was quite close la, though... Laura Yoong got 46, Mingie got 45... hmm I think Li Shan got 41.. Buford got 39... some of my friends failed :( so I didn't know how to act... I was really happy, and I tend to show it when I am happy.. and I am also quite bad at comforting people... :( ... but I will help them if they want me to help la.. I won't leave them in their times of need la.. that I can do.. haha... :)

6) ESL. Hmm.. my Research Proposal was crap.. :( Need to redo the whole thing. Which means my General Outline is crap. Oh, crap. And the General Outline is being graded. Hurkk... then Mrs Banu assigned the class into 3 groups to write a 5-paragraph essay. Wah, some of my classmates were fighting to get into my group! Damn farney! Seng Ming went under his table and popped out between me & An Nie so that he was confirmed in the group.. hahaha... they all, jokers la.. I think this may be because my friends think I am very "semangat ESL" haha.. but no la.. I just like languages... so I try harder lo. ;)

7) Accounting Studies. ... hmm something weird happened today... two of the SAM Office administrators came into our classroom before lecture and sat at the back. Then they listened and took notes throughout the lecture. :S I asked Rameera and Alison what that was all about, and they said.. maybe our lecturer was being evaluated. Wah. Then I said, "In that case we should be on our best behaviour la..." ... but LOL it didn't happen! My class was as noisy as usual... and paid even less attention to her today. :( So how? I mean, maybe my lecturer is not the best Accounts lecturer in the whole college la, but I don't think it's fair to her if she loses her job or anything. I feel sorry for her... However, this is out of my hands. All I can do is pray that my total lack of accounting background for SPM will not be a disadvantage for me on Monday's Common Test 1. :)

8) Went to the EUCLID Math Contest briefing today at 3pm, Lecture Theater 7. Hmm.. I would probably try it out if it DIDN'T cost RM30 for registration (and there's no Cert of Participation! Only Cert of Distinction & Top student medal)... so I don't think I'll go la. My math is about as good as a two-year-old's in comparison to Carmen's and Shern Ren's... and they are some of the people going for the contest. Hahaha! I hope they win!

9) Want to say thanks to Mary, Natasha & Jet Xin for the V-Day presents! *Mwah*!!!

Watermelon Seeds

(*Be forewarned: Not a very happy post, until it gets toward the end)

Wah! Tomorrow is Valentine's Day!

*eek* All the girls are going to be carrying armfuls of roses and chocolates after classes end... and me? I am going to be carrying my textbooks & maybe helping Rameera carry the flowers that cannot fit into her hands. Hahaha!

What should I occupy my mind with tomorrow? Aiyer.. this is the only truly honest post I have ever posted, I think... like really regardless of what people may say after they read this. Hmm... well, this is why some people keep their blog addresses really private - so that they can go all emo and word wouldn't spread like Indo forest fires. But me - nooOoo I have to go overly-enthusiastic about having a weblog, and promote it like a Josh Groban concert all over the place. As a result of that, I usually censor all the blunt/harsh/potentially hurtful statements out of my posts. Or anything that reveals too much about myself.

Hmm.. don't get me wrong, I really love having my friends read my blog -- regardless of whether they are some of my best friends, or friends who I haven't spoken to in years. And I guess it's worth it - buttering up my words a little here and there, to keep this a publicly neutral blog (as neutral as a teenager can get it to be ;P).

But Valentine's Day can get pretty depressing, no? Actually I never really thought much about it before, because I always had a gazillion friends who sent presents left, right, and centre -- it was more of a "Friendship Day" in school! Nobody was ever left out! But now, there are no concrete school rules to shelter us from the reality that this is actually Valentine's Day - where couples can publicly canoodle and people can just laugh instead of give them funny looks. Aih! It's quite fun to watch everyone, really, if I were invisible.

Or am I just being really paranoid (as usual)? When I was 13, I wrote this poem called "Paradox of Time" (I think it was the best poem I have ever written in my whole life, haha, even compared to the ones I wrote at 16, 17 :S) -- and I said something about the "What If"s that "ran too much at once" in a teenager's mind. I think I probably understood more about myself when I was 13 than I do now. Maybe age and time just confuses me! haha! (Really, a large part of me believes that education ruined me :P)...

So, the usual questions that a lot of girls are probably thinking about tonight (the girls without boyfriends or not-so-secret admirers la, that is):
1) What if EVERY other girl has roses/presents from guys tomorrow?
2) What if EVERY other girl is seen walking with a guy tomorrow?
3) (Fill in blank yourself)... etc..etc..

We'll see tomorrow if the things we worry about actually come true!

...................... I promise I'll blog more cheerfully next time! LOLLies!

Additional Anti Antidepressants (meaning depressants):
1) Moral Quiz results back - 6.5 over 10. WoOT! I actually studied for it, and still did so badly!
2) Econs Common Test results almost back - apparently 10 students in my class failed. .... I fear a lot of things.
3) SPM results coming out on February 27th (according to Jaya).. *scream*..

..................... but still not a crap day, despite me highlighting all the worrying aspects of February 13th!

Additional Actual Antidepressants (meaning what it means):
1) I made my first tuna filling today. Whee! It's all good, people! But after I finished crushing the hard-boiled egg, my hand felt like it had persevered through 5000 words in writing.
2) Walking home buddies are a hoot! Three cheers for Nicholas Liew and Adrian Yam! They also scared me half to death by telling me scary death tales related to our neighbourhood. What la.. hahah...
3) Mingzie makes me laugh. On the bus. Loudly. (Apparently I am very loud on the bus. Yes, I think that may be right. Haha! I have no proper volume control. I actually try to beat the sound of the engine rumbling & cars passing.. and I usually succeed. That's how loud, LOL!)
4) Rameera is so sweet. Whee~
5) Texted Sue-Mae today! Yay! Had so much fun contacting her again!
6) I can do my ESL not badly. :) I have the chance to help my classmates if they need me!
7) Photostatting guy in library is kind to me. Lucky ok! Can get your book done first even though you weren't there first, etc. Hehe!
8) Love my blue denim jacket. Been wearing it incessantly. Mum just washed it. Hehe, but it's bound to get worn out real soon!
9) Chu Jie thinks I look mixed British-Chinese. Whoa. That's new!
10) Just found out that great grandmother from Western China, not Northern China. Western China, blue eyes because mixed with the Turkish/or something. Wha wha. But Mummy says the quantity of mixed blood in my blood would be equivalent to the size of a watermelon seed. Haha!

Tra-la-la

What did I do this week in college arh?

Monday, nothing interesting happened. Mostly preparing for the next day's Economics common test (common test = test that all Economics students in the SAM programme at Taylor's sits for, and are graded on as part of internal assessment).

Tuesday - Econs test lor. Big stinker. XD Had Winanga-Li meeting after my last class. Yay! Got into Features department (the one I applied for). Have I already blogged about this? Hmm can't remember - but anyway, I'll reblog if I did, ehe! We have 3 girls and 4 boys in Features. Girls = Alison Kong, Wong Kang Yun & me (all of us are from H1! Haha yay)... Guys = mi amor Shern Ren (yay!), Takeshi Watanabe (my new Japanese friend :D), Jason (from L1) and this other guy from L1 (sorry, I don't know your name yet -- but I'll learn it the next time I see you ok! haha).

I don't really know much about the other departments ... every department had separate meetings. But I know that Mei Chieng got into Events (congrats gurl!) and there are 4 of them in that subcommittee altogether -- and all 4 are from P1 (psychology class).

Editor & Sub-Editor will be elected earliest by next week (*fingers crossed*) hahah aaaah!

Wednesday - nothing happened I think. Haha can't remember!

Thursday - CNY Celebrations. Already blogged about this.

Friday - yay the weekend is almost here! Haha nothing really interesting happened.. did a bit more work at the library.... research... my classmates & my mentor (Sean Yee) thinks I'm so "semangat" for ESL... hahaha Sean said that he see me so hardworking until he feels that he needs to be more hardworking also... omg omg hahahahah so funny... dear readers, please take into account that Sean Yee is my class mentor and my Mathematical Studies lecturer... I also chat with him on MSN Messenger ... LOL!! ... we all do.. he joins our H1 chatrooms... XD cool yah!

Only 2 interesting things happened on Friday. Firstly, I went for the A-Levels Student Council Election from 2-4pm. I know, I know, you must be thinking: "What on earth for?? Why you so kepo?" but no la, it's not because I am so busybody... the reason is that I really, really want to learn how to give good speeches -- I find that I can improve in my public-speaking by listening to the best of my peer group -- and where better to learn those things than at student council elections? Hahahaha anyway, it was really worth my time. Carmen, Su Lynn & Wai Yee were there with me, so I wasn't lonely lor (being the only S.A.M. student there haha!). It must sound so weird for me to go for these things ... but I do, that's what I do with my spare time.. I like to learn. Something besides studies la.

Then the 2nd interesting thing.. because the election was only for about 1 hour, me & Carmeny hung out at the library to kill the rest of the time before the 4pm bus came. I lounged around with Lee Ting for a while, then Carmen wanted to introduce me to her 3 classmates (all guys wor, so intimidating right hahaha). And then ... and THEN ... as I was shaking hands with Chan Fei, he asked me "Are you Chinese?" WAH hahaha at first I didn't understand what he was saying, but then it turns out he was saying I didn't look Chinese -- then Carmen was like "She looks Korean right?" then he said "Yeah! Yeah!"

Hahahahaha I don't know why some people say I look like a Korean! I really don't, unfortunately! I look Chinese (not that that is a bad thing, haha!)... Rameera, her mum, her Nigerian friend Chika, Chika's Sri Lanka friend -- all of them think I look Korean also. LOL!

Denise thinks that God got lazy when he was creating me and just chucked all the races together. So apparently that's why I don't look like any one particular race. But if you ask some people, they will say "Sha-Lene? No lah, she looks pure Chinese lah". And then sometimes people I just meet in tuitions will ask me "Hey, are you American?" and Tse Mun will say, "Sha-Lene? American? No lah... maybe Hawaiian". Then last time, when I first entered secondary school, my new friends thought I was Malay! Hahahaha... maybe different people look at things differently lah. But I really thought hard about my bloodline and I seem quite clear-cut pure Chinese. Only 2 neat things I found out:

1) mum's side was nyonya -- but that is not mixed blood, just Chinese embrace Malay culture.
2) mum's side great great grandmother had blue eyes! wowwww northern china wan ... Northern China people look a bit like ang mo lang hahaha... so maybe my blood is little bit mixed with the Persian soldiers or something la. Nice right. Persian. Persian carpets heehornk! haha!

You know, on Friday, got 3 ang mo lang come to college and distribute free samples of BioTherm. What a gimmick hahaha purposely choose handsome guys dressed in white to promote products! Me, Rameera & Sara purposely went down all the way downstairs (to the guardhouse from Lecture Theater 7!) to see the guys -- I mean, get the samples. LOL! Then Rameera started chatting with one of them (he's from London, apparently) and we got lots of free samples. Yay. Free samples from Calvin Klein underwear models!! ;P

You know, Rameera is so much braver than me -- the other day, she spoke to the insatiably HOTTTT ICPU lecturer (blonde guy)... I just stood there, pressed my back against the wall and stared at him ... so useless right hahaha.... but when he walked past me, I could LITERALLY feel heat radiating from him! Wow! That is one seriously HOT dude! But I didn't talk to him la, haha, that's the sort of thing Rameera does -- not cowardly goofball moi. See, look at what Taylor's College has got... LOL ... *ROTFL* Calvin Klein underwear models & heat-giving Canadian lecturers..

Wee Hours of the Morn

WAH officially the latest I have ever chatted until all week. And Denise went offline about an hour ago! Chatting to my "long-lost" cousin SanSan. Hahahahahaha funny lah... just had to blog about my record-breaking chat! :D

Goodbye To You My Trusted Friend...

*weeps*
Sue-Mae left for Australia yesterday!! Aaaaaaaah no more Mae until July!!

Chilli's on Thursday night. About 20+ of us. 3 people leaving - Mae, Rachel, Yi Chian. Sad la...

Soo Huan! She's so cute! We have been friends since Form 1. :)

Ee Fei, Wen Jie & Sue-Mae! Posted this up for Wen Jie to "steal" for her blog hahaha! Don't all three ladies look fab?! ;)

Sue-Mae, me, Wai Yee & Su Lynn. I love these girls!! ;)

I'm an intruder upon the old Jati gang here! Hahah that's Callie in white.

Yup - the old crew! Carmen, Sara (she's back from Italy! whee~), Denise, Azrina, Mae, Wai Yee, Lynn and MOI! Hahaha I'm like a giant aren't I. Darn big sized lah. Hahaha never mind lah. :) Great party!

What? Skirts??!!

Okay in the Blog That I Will Keep For As Long As I Possibly Can, I hereby state that I, Pung Sha-Lene, will NOT -- I repeat, will NOT -- be wearing a skirt on Tuesday. ;P

Seasons In The Sun & Campus City #2

Part #1: Seasons In The Sun

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun;
But the wine, and the trees, and the seasons are all gone...
-lyrics not guaranteed to be accurate-

TODAY'S POST DEDICATED TO CHUA SUE-MAE! :)

(*Edit: Yay! Can put colour back into entries now, Sue-Mae taught me how to fix the html glitch on my blogger dashboard :))

Aih. I feel so sad ya, because Sue-Mae's leaving tomorrow night...

Tysern threw a farewell party for Sue-Mae, Yi Chian & Rachel Koh tonight... Chilli's for dinner... it was quite fun lah, because Ming was there and we kept talking about H1 and she was telling the whole gang about what I am like in school ... and then right, HAHAHA, NOBODY believed her when she said I am so quiet in class (because I try to pay attention hehe!) - darn funny lah.. Azrina, Sara, etc were all going "REALLY?? SHA-LENE WOR..." ... then Ming added "Then once class ends, wah!!!!" and then Denise started talking about "Sha-Lene UNLEASHED" ahahahah my friends arhhh -- I also dunno whether to be insulted or amused.. in the end, I chose to stick another nacho in my mouth and laugh la. Hahah.

Then Mingie started telling Denise they all about how I am when I go on to the bus -- she says that at 7am, the bus is so quiet because everybody's so sleepy, and then suddenly you can hear someone laughing all the way up the bus, going "hahahahah" at some joke with her friends -- and that someone is always.. guess who.. SHA-LENE. Hahahahaha!

*Post up pics soon, transferring files from Mae's cam & Ty's cam. ;P

Part #2: Campus City #2

After our last class today, Rameera & An Nie accompanied me to my 2nd Campus City meeting. This time, the talk was interestingly entitled, "When Ah Beng Met Mei Wah" - a Malaysian version of 'When Harry Met Sally' - but I only managed to listen to the first 5 minutes of the pastress' (such a word? hehe) speech. *sniffs* I was kinda bummed that I had to leave as the talk had only just begun (they always sing first, and singing - as nice as it is - takes up most of the allotted time). And the speaker today was really good! Aiyer.. but this is out of my control la, I will never be able to listen to any whole speech at Campus City throughout the whole year... I will just end up going there every Thursday hoping against hope that the talk starts earlier than usual, but nooOooo .. bus time clashes.

Maybe I'll create a mindset that I go there for the singing instead of the speech. :P I really, really love gospel music - the melody is always pleasant, and the pitches are usually always easy to reach. So, almost anyone can sing them :) -- thing is, I don't know the songs they sing at Campus City, so I just learn as I go along. Something new every week besides studies la, haha. I also love listening to the music when some of the audience/singers start speaking in tongues, or praying (it sounds really nice, like gentle whispering echoing everywhere!).

Then, when 4pm came, I needed to get up and leave (this is the part I hate doing!) and I was hoping Meera or An Nie would stay (so that they could tell me about the talk tomorrow!~) but BOTH of them got up when I did! Nooooo hahaha now I have to bug mi amor Shern Ren about what the pastress (is there even such a word? haha got it from Ally's blog la, hopefully she wasn't just making stuff up la, haha!) was talking about... curious la. Want to hear stories from other people's POV la. :( Crap time clashes!

Part #3: 3-hour Break

In conjunction with the CNY celebrations, there was a lion dance in college today. RM5 for tickets, I think -- but I didn't go! I didn't even think about it (I prolly would have gone if I had sat down and thought about it, hehe), because I felt I could use the 3-hour break (special time-table today because of lion dance) to get a lot of other work done. And guess what, I actually did! I loaded my arms full with dusty, torn library books for my ESL investigative study research -- and sat in a study-cubicle, reading and reading through the annoying itchy-fying books/journals for anything that was relevant to my research topic.

Then, I photocopied the pages I needed then and there (thanks to Lee Tingie for telling me to photocopy in the library instead of borrowing them and doing it outside, hehe! Psst: see, I mentioned you this time, Ting!! haha!) -- I think I've even somehow made friends with the photocopier operator -- I didn't have small change, so he told me to just take the papers first and pay him later, when I have the change. LOL!! Any student could have taken that opportunity to take the papers, run, and never pay back -- but noo, my conscience wouldn't let me live with it, haha. I paid back already la. ;P I think I am the photocopier's most frequent user of the day, haha! I even picked a study-cubicle literally a stone's throw away from the photocopiers for convenience purposes!

Did a number of annotated bibliographies, photocopied half a dozen sources... not bad la, for a day's work. Haha. I've stretched out my max on borrowing books from the library too -- better get the reading done this weekend, haha... a lot of projects and tests la... but I felt quite proud of the sacrifice I made today, by not going shopping with the rest of my classmates at Sunway Pyramid or going down to the MPH to watch the lion dance... I feel that I would have enjoyed both activities immensely, but I chose to do the most boring task instead. :) I'm becoming an adult! Whee~~

On another update -- been jumping off the bus nearer to my housing area instead of reaching the bus stop first (shortcuts matter the world to college students man! ahaha!). The first time, Adrian Yam (people always go "huh? who?" when I say this name, so for future info -- he used to be known as Kok Hing, haha) showed me the 3-minute shortcut. But then, now I'm walking and yakking back with good ol' Nicholas every day, and it's a 1.5-minute route. Yay, yay. He's darn funny lah -- maybe because we've known each other since Form 1! In college, you learn to appreciate your old friends sooo much more! :)

*speaking in annoying code so as to not disclose my place of residence, hehe.

Who said S.A.M. was easy?

... had first common test of the year today... Economics, Topic 1.

:( Not in the mood to blog today la, but had to update about the stewpid test. So annoying yeah.. I studied so hard for one whole night for it (slept at 3am ok!) and didn't have enough time to answer the paper properly the next day. 5% of internal assessment some more.

....................*post-exam blues, over and out*...................

WAH I TELL YOU AH, damn funny today in the library. I compiled a long list of library books to check out for my ESL project yeah, so I needed help figuring out where to find which call number. After being severely assisted by mi amors Lee Ting & Shern Ren (they're cousins you know! hehe) AND An Nie helping me search for the availability of the main book I wanted, I realised "On reserve" doesn't mean that someone else has put in a reserve for it, but that it was in the "RESERVED" section of the library... chehh... hahahah...

Then I went to the librarian... like, THREE times in FORTY MINUTES... had to queue up every single time too, even if I just wanted to ask a simple question...

Anyway, Lee Ting and I went up to the librarian's counter to borrow books (about 5 minutes before we had to dash for the bus).. and then, I asked the librarian:

"Must we show our student ID when we go to the bookdrop?"

Wah I never see the woman laugh so much before, and some more make the woman next to her laugh... hey TCSJ librarians don't really laugh wan ok.. don't play play.. hahaha...

she said, in all her years of working in the college, no student has ever asked her that question.. she said, who is going to be standing at the bookdrop 24 hours to see the students' ID tags? aihh ahhaa...

but still, worth the laugh la i guess. :P *shy*

Sunday Mornings

There's something different about Sunday mornings compared to other days.

Hmmm.. I prefer Friday afternoons because I know I've got the whole weekend ahead of me. And on Sundays, I know the next day is Monday. And the next Friday is a long way to come.

But besides the Garfield-ish outlook on Sundays.. there's something different about Sunday mornings. Maybe it's just this Sunday. Today. Mm.. well, Mum was discussing the cutting-people's-heads-off issue with me today. And I felt so sad, I cried.

I mean, first of all, they just killed innocent people. And the innocent people were aid workers, or worse - journalists and reporters. And you know how I absolutely adore journalists and reporters? Because they're doing something that I would love to do one day? Aaaargh and after all the hard work they've put in, to be able to do coverages in countries like Iraq -- some terrorists just kill them. Just like that.

It just makes me question what the world is like today.

iGod Confessions

Kington introduced me to two side-splitting, tears-streaming-down-cheeks things yesterday:

#1: iGod
http://www.titane.ca/concordia/dfar251/igod/main.html
I know! You're thinking, "Wha--?".iGod is like an online confession chatroom, where you supposedly chat with "God". It's hilarious, you have to try it out!~

*Note: Not recommended for really religious people, or people with no sense of humour. Haha..

#2: Kenny Sia
http://www.kennysia.com/archives/2005/07/talk_cock_king.php
It's just an article here, but I think his whole blog is visitable. Haha some of my classmates in college are frequent visitors to that website! Anyway, this particular article is really, really funny! It's an online conversation that Kenny Sia (he must be the most popular blogger in all of Malaysia, haha!) had with his friend (nicknamed minishorts) about... a certain thing. *ROTFL*

*Note: Not recommended for people who are sensitive about sexuality, or people with no sense of humour. ;P

Haha and if you're sensitive about issues like sex and religion, you can still get a really good laugh out of visiting this website: http://www.channel4.com/entertainment/tv/microsites/I/itcrowd/video/index.html and watch a 20-minute British sitcom. Haha it's really funny, thanks William! ;P

Memoirs of a Buffet

Hahaha in the past twenty-four hours, I have laughed harder than I have laughed in years! All righty, without further ado - let's begin the photo blog! ;P


The fantastic Mae! This pic very gaya right... haha I took so many pictures of her driving, because ALL of them turned out blur (didn't realize the moving vehicle would affect the pictures) but one. This one. Wah. Haha!


Whee, my lovely bunnies! Haha, that's my empty seat! We went to Shogun (the Japanese restaurant in 1-Utama) for lunch -- I love how smooth the floors are. I was just sliding my chair everywhere hahhaa...


Hahaha I'm obsessed with the 'monochrome' and 'retro' modes on my dad's new camera. This is 'retro' -- I'll post up the 'monochrome' type picture another time for another event. :D


Haha okay, this is at the end of the day when everyone looks so, so dead. We were really exhausted, hehe! We had an extremely hyperactive buffet lunch and attacked almost every earring shop in 1-Utama. 4 pairs for RM10, girls! Haha! Anyway, I just had to post up this photo because this is what Denise looks like with eyeshadow & blusher -- so pretty yeah? Not that she doesn't look pretty ordinarily, she does - but this is extra-pretty. Yup yup. I smushed the testers on her face in Sinma. Hrahaha. Then me & Mae used Mae's brand-new blusher (she only just bought it today when we were out) on Denise's cheeks. Ah, memories!~


I like photos of my friends laughing. :D


Haha yup, me & Denise again (this is before I put the testers on her). You know, before I went to London, I never, never ever used make-up testers on human skin -- but then when I went to London, Vanessa & her friends used the testers -- so even I tried it (haha holidays make people a little more daring) -- and guess what, I didn't drop dead and die immediately hahaha. I dunno lah, I guess I'm more relaxed about it now... and don't have a scream-and-run fear of tester hygiene anymore. As long as you wash your face clean & use make-up remover when you get home, it's ok to me. :)


Denise & Mae -- hehe tempura time!


Azrina & me -- hehe nice picture yeah? ;P


Hands down my favourite picture of the day! Miscellaneous soup. HahahahahaHAHAHAHA. Supposed to be "miso" soup lah, but the "o" went funny and looks more like a "c".


I love these people! (inclusive of girl in red)


That's us -- the famous five hahaha. :D I'll always love spending time with them!

Good vs Evil

*** On a separate note:

Oh my god! HAHAHAHA I just went to Chia Wen's blog to see that Jingle Bells thing that freaked Sue-Mae out so much.

See... that's the thing with us teenagers.. you tell us not to do it, and then we do it to see why we shouldn't do it. AHAHHAHAHA I SO REGRET IT!

Ok, so Chia Wen made it sound like a very funny, innocent thing that we all should check out for the fun of it -- then I opened the audio clip, then it plays Jingle Bells normally in a country-western voice. Then it inverses the song by itself, and then plays a weird version that you can't really recognise words in (unless you can understand English in reverse). The voice is still not scary yeah. I expected the voice to be scary, like in the average Japanese/Korean horror flick. Then when you're thinking to yourself, "Eh nothing's happening, must be something scary that I'm missing from the lyrics" -- so you concentrate harder on the lyrics -- and then WAAAAAAAH this contorted, screaming face pops, full-blown on to your computer screen (with screaming sounds).

Whahahahahah and then you jump back a mile and switch off the volume, and close the window. Hahaha scary sh*t yeah.